Meh, I'm not sleeping tonight because I'm just too caught up in this power point presentation I have to do. Half a week into summer school and I'm already stressed. I guess one of the reasons is because I really don't want to present, and I really don't want to present first, and its also because I don't have a partner since I sit by myself in the back. I guess that was just the result of coming in on the third day.
But though this week has been hectic. Though I was forced to reschedule my time slots about four times with my boss and Ms. Cooper to work out a time schedule that I didn't have to kill myself over - Though I had to rush to workshops from SYEP because they enforced it - Though I was an hour late to class and then cut the next class because of my messed up SYEP work schedule - Though I have to get this powerpoint presentation in by a date my teacher hasn't even told me.
Its great going to Kuei Luck and getting to see the smiling faces of innocent fourth graders and have them brighten up your day. They all give off this energetic and happy vibe that easily cheers you up. When I'm with those kids, I feel like a kid. The others TA's joke around with me and call me a kid too because I play around with them as if I were one of them . But, recapturing our own innocence through their infectious childhood mantra causes us to want to relive our overzealous childhood days. Its as if we catch it, the whole childhood feeling all over again. Heh - or maybe its just me. D:
I really love those kids. I'm a TA for the chess class and I was helping some students with a chess match, though they didn't really understand, I was still impressed by how quickly they adapted to the game.
I watch the afterschool students too, right now I'm watching the fourth graders but on the first day I helped with the third graders. I thought one of the third graders was really cool, her name's Jade, she has her hair cut short and she dresses like a little boy. We argue a lot, like she says she isn't a boy and she won't get on the boys line when I tell her too. She doesn't listen to me either, jokingly though, I'd look at her and be like "Hey, shortie, Turn around and face that way!", and when I would turn away she'd automatically turn in the opposite direction and we'd just keep sticking our tounges out at each other until one of us gets yelled at by one of the other TA's.
Hehe, but then I got switched over to the fourth graders, they're cool too. A few of them keep stealing my cereal during snack time though, I tried hiding it from them but they would tell the other TA's, then I'd just pick on their height by lifting my bowl up. Haha.
There's this fourth grader named Tiffany who's an artist, and she's pretty good for a fourth grader. Though she just draws princesses and stuff, its still a great start for her, she says she wants be a a fashion designer when she grows up. I see big things for her.
Oh and she beat me in an arm wrestling contest too, then the other kids wouldn't believe it so then started lining up to arm wrestle me, and they all beat me, they're strong. D: - They call me weak and stuff now, not cool.

Oh and I don't like checking their homework, even if it is fourth grade level.

Hehe, well anyway. I'm going to go shower up and see what I can do with this darned powerpoint. :D
PS. mmm coffee.
PPS. PLEASE TELL ME WHAT YOUR FAVORITE FRUIT IS, IF I'VE ASKED YOU FOR YOUR ADDRESS BEFORE. PLEASE AND THANK YOU.
PPPS. I COULDN'T SLAP DENISE'S BUTT, SHE DODGES REALLY QUICKLY.
PPPPS. IS IT THE P OR THE S THAT GETS REPEATED? I'LL JUST STICK WITH THE P.
PPPPPS. THIS ISN'T EVEN A LETTER, WHY AM I DOING THIS?
PPPPPPS. IGNORE THE caps. :D

You know that really cool bike of mine? The glow in the dark one with pegs?
The one that can make really sharp turns, go really fast and climb steep hills?
Yeah, that one.
It got stolen. x[
Now, how exactly did I get it stolen? Well, let me tell ya.
One Saturday afternoon, when Ildiko and I were done taking away my precious Totos virginity with Yao-Li and Reina I went to grab my bike only to find the front tire... deflated.
I was like "Oh no, I have to get Caroline. D:", but my bike was dead. So then and there I chose to lock my bike up so I could get it another time and fix the tire.
So then Ildiko and I locked it up at the corner.

Okay, now fast forward to Monday afternoon, two days after that incident. Dallas and I are walking towards Totos to meet up with Claire, Kaycee, Ashley, Emily and Lucie. On the way there, I realized that I should check up on my bike. But... when I glanced at the direction of my bike - it wasn't there. I tried to look closer and took a double take, as if I could miraculously glimpse a light green hew slowly materialize out of thin air. But, unfortunately that didn't happen. My bike was gone.

*Sigh* I really really liked that bike. DX
But, oh well, now that it already happened - I can't really do anything about it. Its not the end of the world anyway. I could get a new bike... and maybe if I get really lucky I could find another one that glows in the dark. :D

So, yeah, lately I've been pushed a little past my limit and I've just been holding it in.
I'm getting those negative thoughts again. Just yesterday I wanted to experience getting hit by a train.
Meh, suicidal thoughts... happens to everyone every once in a while.

But yeah, anyway, I really need to get away. I don't mean in a big group out to wander around in the city. I don't mean by myself to the Metropolitan. But I mean, maybe the 2 or 3 of us, just away in a calm spot. A place to just kick back and let your stressful mantra release yourself. A place where you could lay down your problems, close your eyes and just breath in the breezes of solace. A place that's quiet, but there for you, a place that would catch you when you fall... hmm, a simple place that utters perfection...

but then again, it could all just be a dream.